Not Perfect Enough

Hi Blog,

I guess i wanted a diary for the longest i can remember. Not to be famous but a place where i can talk whats on my mind. Everyday feels like theres a gazilion thing runs on my mind. I dont know how to stop or switch it off. How? Can someone teach me? 

I am so tired with my life. Very tired to live up to all the standards. Why theres need to be standard in our life? Who the fuck wrote all this standards? Like how get an all A’s is the important thing in school? Like when you need to further your studies in higher education to feels you’re educated person? Like when you should start working? Like when you should be having more salary after 2 years working the faster you get high salary the better you are? Like you need to have expensive cars to be respected? Like you need to get your house before you turn thirties the better so that people can see you manage your money well? Like when you should get married? Like when you should have children? and the list goes on with all this fucking standard. Why we need to normalize these standards in the first place? 

Because of these standards i think that I am not perfect enough. Not a perfect daughter, not a perfect wife, not a perfect daughter in law. I push myself till i lost myself. I am so tired already with life with everything. Everyday feels like drowning. Help! but theres no one hears me. 

What about you? Are your perfect enough?

Love,

Sunshine